A pure heart and a happy mind suit everybody. Exterior beauty, without the depth of kind soul is merely decoration. And to be complete our life we need affection, we need love…
I came to study in Italy a couple of years ago and during this period I lost 3 very important people in my life. The last, my grandfather, caused suffers and brought me severe desperation. After his death I couldn’t even try to write in my blog because I was feeling like everything is so pointless. I wanted to scream but I felt that my voice would be lost in a dessert. I felt alone. Living in another country, I wasn’t even there to say goodbye. I felt weak. I felt like there is a big screen that I can watch but not participate. The love was gone and I couldn’t even fight to bring it back. I felt useless. One of the hardest moments of my life.
Today I am facing the truth- what does not kill you- only makes you stronger! And today, months after my absence I am back, stronger and more focused than ever, ready to bring change into your life. Into our life! I need you, my dear readers, I need all of you, I want to be present, and I want to be alive! I want to be participant and love, every one of you, no matter the distance. Because only love can unite us, only love can save us. But how? It can only happen while searching and eventually bringing change into our and the life of our love ones, even to a strangers, to every single human being on the Earth! We don’t need a revolution of the weapons we need a revolution of the mind.
We need love. We need attraction. We need passion. We need to wake up and start living! You can call me a dreamer but I am the one who doesn’t sleep!
For months I didn’t publish, not even an article. For months I decided to capsule myself and protect what was left, to be happy and share with my loved ones. Feeling happy, because I have a beautiful family, boyfriend that I love so much, loyal friends and a good and peaceful life. How many of you are like this?
How many of you from the moment when they open their eyes in the morning see so much injustice everyday but decide to live apart because «we cannot help everyone» «we cannot save the world» «we cannot change the system» or just because we feel desperate after losing someone important? And what can we do? We can close our eyes and pretend that nothing is happening at all. «Grow up, Paris, this is the real life», is what everybody tells me «you are just a drop in the ocean». Wrong! How many of you today thought even a for a minute about their dreams? About what they love? When was the last time you read a book and conquer your imagination instead of «consuming» a TV program? How many of you chose to spend 3 times a week their money for a bottle of Coca-Cola instead of saving some money and spending them for a ticket (theater, opera, ballet, musical, dancing show etc.)? Have you ever bought a piece of art no matter of the price instead of buying new shoes and some clothes? How many of you have ever tried to prevent diseases by doing more sport and activities at all and choosing better quality food instead of something full of fat and junk?
But we don’t have time, right? We like it easy? All day at work, university, then you are so tired you want to watch some TV, eat something tasty (to overcome the hard day you had) and go to sleep waiting for the next day! When was the last time you’ve learned a new language? Do you actually know one other than your mother tongue? When was the last time you stood in silence, hearing your own thoughts clearly? You don’t have time right? And you will never have it. I will tell you what will happen. You will wake up one day- a middle age woman/,man, that 45 year old person, unsatisfied of her/his marriage, family, work. Having health issues and bone problems, cause of the absence of sport and healthy lifestyle. A person that is existing but not living. Spending her/his money on easy things like pre-cooked meals, cinema, cigarettes, coffee (and all the addictive ones), cable TV, clothes and shoes, cheap vacations. After all we have become this generation-the easy one, the one that girls are easy and their moms don’t care. A generation that choose it cheap and more, rather than less and quality. A Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat ecc, generation, that lovers are trendy and moral is out of style. We have become an easy person, because we choose everyday to satisfy our corpse, but not our souls.
Now tell me, when was the last time someone called you beautiful? When was the last time you «forgot» about your hungry tummy and helped that very old lady to bring her grocery bags on her way home? When was the last time you gave a rose to somebody you love? When was the last time you called your mom and said you love her? When was the last time you convinced yourself you don’t need a pair of new shoes and with the money you are going to a concert of your favorite musician or visiting the new town exposition? When was the last time you raised up your «busy» head and looked at the roofs and the architecture of the street you pass by every day?
And if you don’t usually do either of these things do you consider yourself actually alive? Isn’t it about our own choices how we actually dare to live? Do you feel present or just a visitor of someone else’s life? And more important why you don’t do something to change it? Maybe you don’t have time, postponing everything…not today, right! That not today that always become never!
“The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it.”
Do you know your price? And more important how long do you plan to live unsatisfied about your body, love partner, family and friend relationships, or work that doesn’t make you happy?
Nearly 2 years ago, one 21 years old Bulgarian girl decided that it’s not enough to live well and to satisfy your basic needs, packaged a small hand luggage and went to live in Africa-realizing that there is much more and it only depends on us and our daily contribution to choose how to act and live better. It is not enough to be happy when there are so many people in need. It is not enough to stay home and to hear everyday about the world economy crisis, hunger, meteorological disaster, poor education, rapists and molesters everywhere, and this information to enter one of your ears and find its end escaping from the other. Realizing that to live significant you need to act, not just to observe.
This girl was me- I am choosing not to stay and observe the life, while it is happening, but to make it happen! I choose to be present every day of my life! Maybe I am just a dreamer, but in my mind I am free!
‘My son, the battle is between two ‘wolves’ inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.’
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: ‘Which wolf wins?’
The old Cherokee simply replied, ‘The one you feed.’
Welcome back to Paris in Africa! And you are more that welcome to read and then to try to “feed” your Humanity! To “feed” your inner peace and to fulfill your heart with love and kindness. Every Monday I will publish an article about my life experience- living as an African while volunteering and helping kids in Kenya!
Meet me every Monday having my personal story and photos. Till then remember- after loosing so many people during these years I know something for sure- I will not live forever, my body would eventually loose the battle called life- but my ideas will live, and I will live within them.
Welcome back and be ready!